this is it.
i am left alone.
left alone to think if i can get promoted.
i don't know how things can turn out this way.45 is an E.44.4 is an O.35 is an O.34.4 is a F.2 Es and 2 Fs will get you promoted.4 Os wouldnt.it's like desperately fighting between life and death.very very scary.why is it that when i don't study and when i do, i get the same grades? the same failing grades. like what my friend honestly told me, i am losing focus in every subject.every subject is as bad as the other.
i am talking like how i am like year.the same thing.i keep giving myself excuses.i am immuned.i am not a science person.i don't have the will to score well cos i never did in the past.i made the worst decision in my life.i need a more conducive environment.i need more motivational friends.i need this, and that.i am falling, but i am not doing anything.did i really put in effort for promos?
the downfall of Liane started in sec 3.and it's at it's peak now.the worst downfall ever.if i really get promoted, what do i do? what WILL i do? i need to do something.but i dunno where to start.and HOW to start.
i feel so hopeless.

all hopes are da s h e d--